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What can I do?

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Some nights, there was nothing Elliot could do. No joke, no solution, no perfectly worded phrase that would make anything better. No offer of food, no blanket adjustment, no reminder that it would all be okay. Pregnancy had transformed Leah’s body into something foreign—something exhausting and relentless. Some days, she powered through, her usual sharp wit and determination carrying her through discomfort. Other days, she felt trapped inside herself. Those were the hardest. Tonight was one of them. Elliot had known from the moment he walked in that it wasn’t going to be an easy night. The house was quiet, too quiet. No greeting, no sarcastic remark about how long he’d taken to show up, no Rusty bouncing at his feet demanding attention. Just Leah, curled into herself on the couch, staring blankly at the wall. "Hey," he said softly, setting his bag down. She didn’t respond right away, only blinked as if surfacing from deep underwater. "Hey," she echoed, but it was ...

The Household Tips Deep-Dive

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  Leah was hyperfocused. Elliot knew the signs. The intense stare at the screen. The speed at which she scrolled. The fact that she had, at some point, migrated from the chair to the floor, her laptop balanced precariously on her knees, completely unaware of time. He peered over her shoulder. Household tips. Elliot exhaled. Not again. "Babe?" he tried. No response. "Leah?" Nothing. "You haven’t eaten in six hours." Still nothing. He could’ve said, Leah, the house is on fire and she probably wouldn’t have looked up. He sighed and retreated to the kitchen. He had two options: Let her be and deal with the inevitable emotional crash later. Find something she would eat and gently lure her back to reality. He chose snack bribery. Toast was clearly off-limits, so he settled on cut-up fruit and a few biscuits, arranging them like an offering on a plate. When he returned, Leah was muttering under her breath, her fingers flying over the keyboard. "Apparently,...

The Toast Incident

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It started with toast. A simple, innocent slice of toast.   Elliot had woken up first—rare, but not unheard of. Leah was still asleep, curled into a bundle of pillows, her breathing steady.  Rusty was sprawled across the bed like a tiny, scruffy king, his paws twitching as he dreamed of chasing something—or being chased.   Leah hadn’t eaten much the day before.  Nausea had hit her hard, leaving her curled up on the sofa, rejecting everything from soup to crackers with a look of betrayal.  Elliot figured he’d try something simple. No strong smells, nothing too complex.  Toast, lightly buttered.   The moment he stepped into the bedroom, she bolted upright.   "What is that smell?!"   Elliot froze. Smell? It was toast.  It wasn’t burnt, wasn’t particularly strong, wasn’t anything.  Leah gagged and pointed furiously toward the door. “Take it away! Take it away now!”   Rusty, excited by the sudden commo...

Elliot & Rusty: The Joy of Fetch

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  Elliot had always liked the idea of having a dog. He’d grown up with a Yorkshire Terrier—small, yappy, full of energy—but as an adult, it never seemed practical. Living in a flat, working long hours, it just wasn’t the right time. So, for years, a dog was something he admired from a distance, something he told himself he’d get one day. Then Leah got Rusty. At first, Elliot didn’t think much of it. The dog wasn’t his , after all. He was just there, another presence in the house. A small, scruffy thing with big, hopeful eyes and a tail that never stopped wagging. Rusty followed Leah everywhere at first, and Elliot assumed that’s how it would stay. But things shifted. Slowly. Rusty started waiting for Elliot at the door when he came home. Curling up beside him on the sofa. Nudging his hand when he stopped petting him, as if to say, I’m still here. Then came the night when Elliot found himself alone, mind heavy, staring blankly at the TV. He wasn’t expecting company. But Rusty, sensi...

Elliot’s Love: When Nothing Is Ever Enough

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Elliot never thought of himself as the kind of person who could be controlled. He was easygoing, thoughtful, not the type to get caught in endless arguments or accusations. But control doesn’t always come as a demand. Sometimes, it arrives as a suggestion, a concern, a question framed just the right way. "Do you really think it’s appropriate to talk to her?" "I just don’t understand why you follow people like that online." "You should be spending your money on things that matter." At first, it felt like care. It felt like love. And maybe, in some way, it was. But over time, Elliot started to second-guess his choices before he even made them. Then came the rules. They were never spoken outright, but he learned them through trial and error. One day, something was fine. The next, it was betrayal. If he made plans with his friends, he wasn’t prioritizing her. If he stayed home, he was boring. If he opened up about his struggles, he was making it all about hims...